I need a space to rant; where I could express my disappointments, frustrations, and anger. I am just angry so angry at the moment. I was put in a situation where everything’s forced upon me: my whole life. Decisions and choices were dictated. It was as if speaking myself out was a crime. I was made to please everyone but myself. My voice was never heard;never given a choice. If I were, it must have been implied. If asked,what I think or how I feel, answers should be in accordance to what you like. If not, then we would have a problem-an issue never to be resolved again. Tell me I’m wrong. I’ll probably admit it. Keeping quiet is easy keeping true to myself is a challenge. In silence, I weep. I question who I am. I question my own capacity to think. I doubt my abilities. I lost courage along the way.
To the few who will come across this post please don’t judge. I do not always blurt my feelings out. I don’t hate the world nor the person who controls my every move. I wrote this post just so I could release the negative in me and try to invite more positive ones. Again, I don’t hate. I even made this post because I hope for change. I want to live life more break from this confinement. With this, I ask you to pray with me that I may find myself again that I’d be given courage. I love to live. I just hope I’d be given a chance to live it.